I am thinking the answer may be a great big YES.
I don't think I am bi-polar because I don't go days on a high and then days on a low.
No, I am more of an hour to hour mood swing kind a girl.
It really doesn't take my mood much time at all from great to CRAP.
Or crap to PRETTY DAMN GOOD.
A few days ago was a really great day. After that the days were so-so.
Yesterday was a crap day until I just about had a major meltdown.
And now I am better today.
Course something will probably piss me off today.
It usually does.
Or someone will say something and make me think about other things and I will get all sad and depressed.
I seriously confuse the hubby.
He doesn't get how I can be in such a good mood one minute and get so mad in the next.
That's a conundrum, that is.
Maybe the next time I get pissy I need to grab me a cup of tea.
Apparently there is supposed to be something in the tea to make a person relax.
I just might have to test that theory.
I love tea so I am sure that will not be a hardship.
Ya know, last night I started a post on here and read through it before posting.
I realized how pathetic I sounded and deleted it before publishing.
I know, I know. Everyone has their bad days.
But, no one likes a whiner.
But just writing it and reading it made me snap out of my funk.
At least for the time being.
Until the next time.
Being the best I can be is a work in progress.
It's like alcoholism.
Except the problems are all in my head, not in a bottle.
Sometimes I don't even know where all this came from.
OK, I did not have a happy childhood.
My teen years sucked.
But, I loved my early twenties.
I was so happy.
Maybe it's because I did whatever the hell I wanted.
And now I can't just go wherever and do whatever.
It frustrates me sometimes.
I guess, deep down, that's where it all comes from.
Knowing that just because I like to go wherever the wind blows me does not mean it is what my family wants and what is best.
So, I sit down and shut up for the greater good.
And maybe that makes me angry.
I hate being angry.
It feels really bad.
But, I am not going to just up and leave my family.
That would make no one happy.
I am just going to have to figure out a way to let go of my frustration.
There are just so many things.
I love being able to stay home.
But, sometimes I wished I could make my own money.
I love having my own garden.
But, sometimes, I just don't want to take care of it.
I am really good at being frugal.
But, sometimes I wish I didn't have to be.
I am just all out of whack.