Monday, December 20, 2010

The Season of Perpetual Hope?

Christmas has never been my greatest time of year.
I've mentioned that before.

And yet, year after year I really try.
I do.

I don't know what it is, but I don't think I am supposed to have a great Christmas.

Thursday is the day my sis and our kids are to get together to make cookies.
We try every year.
Last year the weather was supposed to be bad so it didn't happen.

Now, this year, it is supposed to be bad again.
Hope to hell, it's nice.

Tomorrow Honeyman is finally going to the doctor to address some possibly major medical issues.
I am worried about that.
So far, every thing we worry about with him has turned out to be minor.
But, I know some day it won't turn out that way.

So, I have spent more time worrying about him and less time doing what I need to be doing.

I hate stress.
Sometimes it's all I can do not to curl up into a ball in bed and never get up.

I know no one really wants to read a bunch of whiny shit so I try not to do that.

Maybe I will feel better tomorrow.

I hope so.


  1. I don't think anyone's Christmas is ever that good Ruth... it's just that the tv specials make it seem like it is...

    I really hope your betterhalf is going to be okay.

    And by the way, I whine all the time on my blog, so you go ahead and spill your heart...


  2. Thanks for permission to whine away.
    I don't always comment, but I do read your posts and you don't seem to whine to me.
    I know people that actually look forward to their holiday get togethers. Honeyman and I never do.
    I hope he will be fine too. He figures they will just send him for tests first.

  3. I'm whining on my post too today, so you're not alone. I think whining is good for the soul, and it helps relieve stress, or that's the excuse I give myself. I kinda feel like you about the holidays anymore, it's just me and my hubby, so no extreme partying going on.

    Hope your husband gets an ok health bill. I'm going through the same thing with mine.

  4. Thanks, Alessandra. I hope your husband comes out OK too.


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