Here lately I have been giving a lot of thought to what friendship really means.
Growing up I never had any real close friendships.
Due to my upbringing, and the fact that I got picked on all the time I really never learned how to bond with anyone.
That fact is very sad to me.
Learning to be close to people is important.
I have learned, but it is still hard for me to make friendships and when I do it seems to be with people that don't open up about things.
Or seem to want me to share.
And I am at a point, I need that sometimes.
I have my husband.
But, that isn't always enough.
And when we are facing the same thing it is hard.
Another person would be nice.
He has that.
I really don't.
What has really made me start thinking about all this is because of my daughter.
Over the last several years she has had a variety of different health issues.
And each thing takes more and more out of me.
I have had people that I have thought were good friends, not once seem at all concerned about how I or my family were doing through all this.
My husband says they don't care because it's not their kid.
But, as a friend shouldn't they care enough about you to ask?
I think so.
After this whole gallbladder surgery business, I have really started to wonder how much I really want to be friends with someone that acts like its not a big deal.
That when you mention why your daughter has been sick and she is having surgery
the only response is- she'll feel better.
No phone call or email after the surgery to see how she is.
No response to facebook statuses that she is getting along really good.
I still care.
I just care a little less.
Maybe I shouldn't be that way.
But, that is how I feel.