Do you believe that you can get what you want by working hard?
Do you think some people are just destined to not be able to climb out of a hole?
I really don't know what I believe anymore.
What I do know:
My house interest rate is way high and we cannot lower it. Ocwen says "Too bad, so sad. You can afford it." Have I mentioned how much I hate Ocwen? Damn the people that keep selling my mortgage.
My truck interest rate is high. Because we got a used car, interest was higher. But, it is higher than it should be. My FICO was high enough for the best rate. Honeyman's was just a little lower so they decided to go by his so we ended up going through dealership.
Honeyman is not physically able to work a second job.
Due to various reasons, among them a mystery illness, I am not working. A few years back, I could bring in a few extra hundred a month online. Yeah, that's not happening anymore.
When pay goes down and insurance, gas, food, etc. goes up, it is hard.
I know there are many people that are living the way I am.
Not in my area.
Everyone around here seems to have plenty of money.
Sometimes it is baffling. How can they afford all this stuff?
Remember the good old days of looking forward to pay day?
I don't do that anymore.
It is just depressing.
See how much money I don't have after paying bills. Or to pay the bills.
But, as each month goes by, I can feel a little better. I am that much closer to paying off the truck.
The house? That is so far off, I really don't know what will happen. I could be dead by 2033.
OK, I could be dead tomorrow.
This was just really depressing.
You may have guessed that today was pay day.
And if you already guessed that somebody forgot to tell me about some debits, you might be right.