That Certainly Was Gratifying

Every time I pay a bill, I get a sense of gratification for getting that bill paid and one step closer to the end of the payments.

At the same time, I hate having to make that payment.
I just want to keep that money and spend it on ME.
Or save it to fix my house, whatever.

Gratifying is the sense of satisfaction from doing something.

I don't know if I ever have a total handle on that.

I love eating all my homemade jam and salsa but the gratification doesn't come until after I have it all done.

Parenthood is not all gratifying.
Many days I just feel an enormous sense of frustration.
She is a teenager- nuff said.

I have a good kid.
She is responsible and kind to others
so I do feel gratification from that.

But, once again that is after I went through all the crap to get her that way.

Whatever happened to feeling it in the moment?

I think I may have missed the seminar on how to do that.

I just do because it needs done and than I can feel satisfaction or not about it later.

I think I may need to practice my inner Buddha and just be peaceful and serene with whatever it is that I am doing when I am doing it.
No matter what it is.

Not sure that will lead me to gratification of things while I am doing them.
It really couldn't hurt.

Gratification- it's where it's at!